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Usually, I don’t write anything when I show my pictures, but I felt the urge to share with all of you how I felt during this photo shoot and after I saw the final results. Everybody knows that I was a classical ballet dancer for more than 18 years. I was the student with the highest grades of the entire school, which suggested I had all the qualities to become the perfect dancer.

Nevertheless, ”all the qualities” became “almost all” when at my 13 years old I weighed 125 pounds, which made me undergo bulimia for two years and anorexia for like seven years. When I remember about those days, I merely can't understand what went through my head. The image that I used to see reflected on the mirror was more of a monster than of a young girl. I was in a state where nothing was more important to me than to “look good” and if that meant to be sick I wouldn’t care.